The thing with my chronic pain conditions is that often, it isn't the pain that immobilises me. I can cry, I can grump, I can work through it, I can try and calm it down with codeine and morphine. I can hold it at bay.
The thing that takes me out is the fatigue. It almost feels like a physical weight dragging down on me. It's like I've been taken over by Miss Havisham and time might as well have stopped.
Right now, I've finished work and was looking forward to washing my hair. Instead, I feel trapped in my body and just the thought of doing anything feels impossible.
I know I'll feel better once I've dragged myself into the shower but it's frustrating that something so straightforward can feel so difficult.
I'll get there.
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