"I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired..."

In my previous post I mentioned my suspicions that I might have Fibromyalgia and I was going to discuss them with my doctor this week.

Yeah. That didn't happen.

Most of my weekend was spent hunkering down under the weight of chronic fatigue and by the time it came round to go back to work it was all I could do to just get through the days, so anything beyond dragging myself out of sleep and getting through the work day was out of the question.

I still intend to go to the doctors and talk through my symptoms etc., but when I'm feeling more able to actually string a sentence together.

It does get frustrating feeling perpetually tired. Not just physically, but the mental dredge of it. It's very easy and tempting to collapse under the burden of it but I'm coping.

Other than the tiredness, being back at work full-time has been going well. I'm grateful for being kept on project work still and my boss continues to be supportive and approachable.

For example, IT are replacing laptops in my office at the moment. I have been working from home a long time now, way before the pandemic, for health reasons. I haven't been into the office in over 3 years! It's in a different building now so I don't even have a desk. Which is fair.

Anyway, I mentioned it to my boss and explained that mobility is still an issue for me and she said to mention it to my contact in HR as it can probably be arranged to be done by courier since that's what happened with new starters and their equipment during the lockdowns.

They contacted IT on my behalf and my replacement laptop is being delivered to me on Monday.

I also received a follow-up call this week from the company that dealt with my phased return plan. We had a pleasant chat and we essentially closed off their involvement since I was happy with how the phased return had gone and was receiving plenty of support from work.

It is nice to feel part of the team again. Having a routine again is helpful. It's also a good feeling for Fridays to mean something again.

This weekend I'm looking forward to seeing some friends and having a change of scene. I am definitely a home body so for the most part, I do well being at home a lot, but even I have my limits.